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Omg I can't just.. No. >< so, my best friend bellblue13 just returned back after a month of inactivity on howrse.
We used to talk every day, all day. We were best online friends forever. She was there for me, I was there for her. That was a month ago. Now? She's come back and I know I should be happy but I'm not. I just feel awkward and we used to be so loose and joking around each other. No tenseness or awkwardness at all.
Now my awkwardness is like breaking the meter Dx
It's like bell is a complete different person. The same, but not at the same time. She's different. She's changed. Moved on. I hate the idea of it but I guess I've moved on too.. I didn't hold back for her. Maybe the friendship wasn't meant to be idk. I'm confused, mad, and disappointed at the same time. All at once. What do I do? I can't ignore her. But I can't tell her how I feel about it all. I feel like there's no 'connection anymore between us. If that doesn't sound dumb at all.. :/
Sorry for the rant. On another subject I can't describe how much I hate my life. Im struggling with feelings for someone. Don't ask, DON'T comfort me. Everything is complicated. A loved one was ripped away. Thanks God. My life is just shit. I can't fix it. Damn, I have no control. Maybe God has a plan for me but get to the ducking good part already so I can quit suffering.
UGHH. I HATE YOU LIFE.
MOVED.
I have moved accounts over to Equino-Studios (https://www.deviantart.com/equino-studios). I'd love it if you swung over and watched me, or gave a comment on my art! Thanks :'D
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QUITTING.
I'm quitting art. Don't say anything to change my decision - if you want to speak about trying, don't. Get duct tape and stick it over your mouth, because I don't want to hear it. Got it? Okay.
All commissions could be finished but mostly likely I will not.
Commissions are CLOSING.
If I have anything for sale currently in my gallery, bid on it now. or I will give it to someone. I'm not popular anyway. Meh.
It's been 4 years.. I think I'll retire from the all the bloody crap of depression and frustration I've endured, don't you think? Say yes. -_-
If you say even one hell of a word about not quitting, I swear.. That'll be the last straw. To
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